I'm afraid that..

I'm afraid that I have this job

but then I dedicated so much to this job yet forget about the true purpose of life

I'm afraid that when I started to buy things for myself

but forget about responsible for taking care my brothers and sisters around the globe

I'm afraid that I'm started to feel alone along this journey

but this is all my fault who does not determine to seek and build the 'biah solehah'

I'm afraid that I'm stuck in front of the gate of heaven

but didn't passed all the requirement to be there

I'm afraid that I'm just being afraid

but I'm doing nothing

"...Verily never will Allah change the condition of a people until they change it themselves (with their own souls).." Surah 13: Ayat 11.